Woohoo, I am looking forward to this break! :-) I feel very confident about my efforts in this class. I'm suprised that it's ended so soon though! The farther I get into school, the quicker it seems to go by. I found out yesterday that when I registered for my next classes,I have to have my clinical app in soon! I have to figure out what I'm going to do when clinicals come around in Septemeber. I think I remember the girl I talked to saying that it would start around Sep. 21st. I'll have a newborn around, so I'm not quite sure how thats going to work out :-). But, it will eventually.

Wow, we're already in week 9 of this class. Time has went by so fast, it's unbelievable. I'm doing some wrapping up on my paper, and hope to have it submitted later tonight, possibly early tomorrow. It's been a journey for me in this class, and it has taught me a lot. I am really looking forward to the break though after classes are finished :-). I've been so exhausted these past few days, especially since I usually stay up late to do my homework since my girls don't really give me a chance to during the day. I get a few minutes during nap time to do my readings, but thats about it lol. But, I want to wish everyone the best on their future preceedings, and may you all do GREAT in your upcoming classes :-).

I decided to use some topics from the course page for blogging this time.
As for keeping a blog after the course, I don't think that I will. I don't really like doing it too much, mainly because I feel like I am just talking to a computer, and no one else in a sense. I haven't had but maybe one or two feed backs since I've started this blog. I already somewhat blog anyways, if that is what you want to call it, on Facebook. When I write something on there, I get responses and feedback, helpful and not, from friends and family, and it just seems like more of a comfortable thing for me. And somehow, ever since I started this blog, I receive junk e-mails from solicitors trying to get me to join their blogs, or help them to sell products on my blog, etc.. That kind of bothers me a little bit, because I really don't like junk email lol.

Things are starting to look up finally. My mom took a turn for the best and as of right now she is doing great compared to how she was. She decided that she wanted to come home and so she did. They brought a hospital bed out to her house, and she has a nurse come out every other day to check up on her and do her physical therapy. She can't really use her left arm or leg, and thats due to a little stroke she had during her last episode. But, I couldn't be happier seeing my mom finally out of the hospital. She's got a long road of recovery, but she's fighting the entire way and I'm proud of her. Christmas time was great. It was hectic, having to go to 3 different dinners, but it was worth it and I had a great time with all of the family, and our girls had a blast with all of their presents. My youngest, who turns 2 in June, was actually able to unwrap presents this year and have fun with it. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and that everyone has a happy and safe New Year!

With it being my birthday today, I had a mind full of wishful thinking.. I had hoped to hear some good news about my mom, but that wish never came true. She ended up having another heart attack while in the hospital, and she is currently on a ventilator. They had her sedated, and when she woke up, she decided she did not want the ventilator anymore...
All of this happened because of the dialysis. They went to take the tube from her neck, and she went into cardiac arrest almost instantly. I don't understand how dialysis can do such harm on a person, when its supposed to be there to do good.
She signed a DNR today as well... Is it wrong or selfish of me to be upset with her for signing it? I don't want to lose my mom.. I'm just not ready to accept that yet.. I want her to be here to see my family and I grow, and to see all of her grandkids..

This last week, almost two, has been pretty rough for my family and I. I got a phone call from my dad at 2:30 a.m. last Thursday, letting me know that my mom was taken to the hospital, and that she had suffered a heart attack. I was worried, of course, but later on that day I had called and everything seemed to be fine for the most part and she was getting checked out by doctors. Well, the next day I get a call from my Aunt saying that the doctors are saying that my mom will be lucky to make it through the next 48 hours. What happened is she had suffered a massive heart attack, in turn losing 30% of her heart. Because of that, her organs were starting to fail. Her liver showed signs of not properly functioning, her lungs were in HORRIBLE shape because she had underlying pneumonia (shes a heavy heavy smoker), and her kidneys were shutting down. That had to have been the worst day of my life by far.. to know that my mom was basically on her death bed.. I can't begin to say all the things that ran through my head.. See, shes only 62..its just not her time yet.. As of right now though, she is doing a little better. Her kidneys are shot, and the doctors say that dialysis is going to be an indefinite part of her life now. My oldest daughter prays for her grandma everyday on her own, and in random places, and it just tears me up inside. It makes me happy, but sad at the same time. To know that my 3 year old understands prayer is just an amazing thing. My husband and I took our girls to see thier grandma because we just didn't know what god had in store for us. All my 3 year old could tell everyone is that grandma was really sick, and that she really wanted grandma to come home to her house and play. I just hope that when Christmas comes around, that everything will be fine and maybe my mom can come home.. I know it's only wishful thinking, because she has a long road ahead of her to recover, but I can always hope.

    Oh wow, where do I begin? It's been one of those weeks :-). Finally after two weeks, I have my Jeep back. After a new battery, starter, cylinoid, and ignition switch, it's up and running and hopefully staying like that. I think I'm just going to sell it, or trade it in on something else. I've had nothing but trouble with that thing.. maybe it's just the make of the vehicle all together :-) My husband is a big Chevy fan, so he definitely wants to get rid of it :-)
    On the school side of my week, I have a 4 page paper due tomorrow. It's been really interesting writing it. I'm pretending as though I've been shrunk down really small, and are traveling through the human body from the leg all the way up to and out the nose. All the while, using the vessels and veins as my roadways and describing all the "attractions" along my way.
    (PS) How is everyone enjoying the cold weather? :-D It's been really cold where I'm at, and we just got 3 1/2 inches of snow, and I'm LOVING it!