With it being my birthday today, I had a mind full of wishful thinking.. I had hoped to hear some good news about my mom, but that wish never came true. She ended up having another heart attack while in the hospital, and she is currently on a ventilator. They had her sedated, and when she woke up, she decided she did not want the ventilator anymore...
All of this happened because of the dialysis. They went to take the tube from her neck, and she went into cardiac arrest almost instantly. I don't understand how dialysis can do such harm on a person, when its supposed to be there to do good.
She signed a DNR today as well... Is it wrong or selfish of me to be upset with her for signing it? I don't want to lose my mom.. I'm just not ready to accept that yet.. I want her to be here to see my family and I grow, and to see all of her grandkids..